Vindicate
Vindicate is a work of fiction. Names, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
A Loveswept eBook Original
Copyright © 2015 by Elizabeth Yarnall
Excerpt from Atone by Beth Yarnall copyright © 2015 by Elizabeth Yarnall
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Published in the United States by Loveswept, an imprint of Random House, a division of Penguin Random House LLC, New York.
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This book contains an excerpt from the forthcoming book Atone by Beth Yarnall. This excerpt has been set for this edition only and may not reflect the final content of the forthcoming edition.
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Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Chapter 1: Cora
Chapter 2: Leo
Chapter 3: Cora
Chapter 4: Leo
Chapter 5: Cora
Chapter 6: Leo
Chapter 7: Cora
Chapter 8: Leo
Chapter 9: Cora
Chapter 10: Leo
Chapter 11: Cora
Chapter 12: Leo
Chapter 13: Cora
Chapter 14: Leo
Chapter 15: Cora
Chapter 16: Leo
Chapter 17: Cora
Chapter 18: Leo
Chapter 19: Cora
Chapter 20: Leo
Chapter 21: Cora
Chapter 22: Leo
Chapter 23: Cora
Chapter 24: Leo
Chapter 25: Cora
Chapter 26: Leo
Chapter 27: Cora
Chapter 28: Leo
Chapter 29: Cora
Chapter 30: Leo
Chapter 31: Cora
Chapter 32: Leo
Chapter 33: Cora
Chapter 34: Leo
Chapter 35: Cora
Chapter 36: Leo
Epilogue: Beau
Dedication
Acknowledgments
By Beth Yarnall
About the Author
The Editor’s Corner
Excerpt from Atone
Chapter 1
Cora
I got my driver’s license on my sixteenth birthday so I could visit my brother in prison. California Institute for Men in Chino, California, sounds like one of those super-snooty colleges you have to be rich to get into or else be the next generation in a long line of alumni. But this is no college. Chino Men’s, as it’s referred to, is one of the most violent prisons in the state.
That’s where they sent my brother to serve out his life sentence.
Five and a half years later, I’ve made the nearly two-hour trip from San Diego to Chino and back close to a hundred times. Four hours of driving to spend an hour—or more, if I’m lucky—with my brother. If I’ve gotten too late a start and visiting hours are over before my number is called or if Beau’s visitation has been revoked because he’s done something stupid, I don’t get to see him at all.
I don’t count those times.
“Seventy-three,” one of the corrections officers intones.
I stand and give my number to the guard, like I’m in a deli about to order lunch or something.
“Name,” he says.
“Cora Hollis.”
“Inmate.”
“Beau Hollis.”
“Relationship.”
“Sister.” You’d think he’d recognize me by now. I’ve been here so many times. But every time he acts like it’s my first visit and puts me through the same drill.
I’ve already been through the metal detector, searched, and patted down so thoroughly I’m questioning my sexuality. Another guard comes over to lead me to a room full of lockers where I stow my cellphone and car keys. Then I finally get to follow him to the visiting room, where Beau is already waiting for me.
Sometimes it takes me a moment to recognize him. He looks so unlike my brother. This bullshit prison has stolen more than years from Beau’s life. It’s robbed him of his dignity and anything resembling happiness.
I want to give him a hug, but that’s not allowed. Instead, I drop into my seat opposite him. “I put twenty extra dollars in your commissary account this month.”
Beau looks away, picking at the side of his thumb with his index finger. Even as a kid he always did this whenever he was agitated or annoyed. “I don’t need it.”
“I thought—”
His narrowed gaze swings back to me. It’s his mean big-brother look, the one he always tries to intimidate me with. It didn’t work when we were kids and it doesn’t work now.
“I don’t need a present,” he says. “You need the money more.”
“Yeah, well, I can’t take it back out, so you’re stuck with it. Happy birthday.”
“Some fucking birthday.”
“I’d have brought some pointy hats and balloons, but they wouldn’t fit up my ass.”
“Watch your fucking mouth.” He’s barely two years older than me, but he’s always taken the job of big brother seriously. Even after all he’s been through.
“You’re a fantastic example,” I tell him.
I mean it as a joke, but it falls flat as Beau’s ever-roaming gaze takes in the room around us. Since being incarcerated, my once fun-loving prankster of a brother has turned into a suspicious, twitchy, hypervigilant, hardened prisoner. I don’t dare comment on the fading bruise under his left eye or his freshly sheared hair. He always looked like he needed a haircut even after an appointment with the barber. But that was before.
Before he was arrested, then convicted for the brutal rape, sodomy, and murder of his ex-girlfriend Cassandra. Before our family was torn apart and life as we knew it changed forever. Before I watched, helpless, as my brother turned into someone I hardly recognize anymore.
“Yeah, I’m not exactly winning Best Big Brother of the Year this year or any year, am I?”
I hate it when he puts himself down. “You’re at the top, as far as I’m concerned.”
He makes a rude noise, but doesn’t comment.
“Did you get my card?” I ask.
“I got it. Thanks. How’s school going?”
“I’m taking a really great online class this summer.” I never got around to telling him that I quit school last year to work and save money for a possible appeal of his case. Or that the job I took is in a law office, where I have ample access to the law library and case reviews.
“It’s not on something stupid like criminal law or how to be a private investigator, is it?”
I shift in my seat.
“Aww, shit, Cora. You promised you’d give up on the stupid idea that you could get me out of here. Why are you wasting your time? I’m a lost cause. Everyone knows it. Take those beauty classes like you always wanted. Face the fact that you can’t do what Mom’s and Dad’s lawyers and the public defender couldn’t. I’m done. You’re not. You still have a life.”
“I don’t believe that, Beau, and neither should you. Those charges were bullshit then and they’re bullshit now. You didn’t kill her. There’s no way I’ll ever believe it and I’m never going to stop looking for a way to get you out of here.”
“Doesn’t really matter if I did it or not. I’m convicted, aren’t I?”
“I wasn’t going to tell you this because I knew what you’d say, but I think I might have a new lead.”
He holds up
a hand. “Stop it. Stop it, right now.”
I ignore him and continue. “I think I found a witness who could—”
“Damn it, Cora! I told you to stop.”
His outburst has a couple of the guards coming off the wall where they’ve been leaning and looking at him hard. Beau waves them back and takes a deep breath, scrubbing his hands over his face.
“My life is ruined,” he finally says. I hate it when he talks like this. I refuse to believe that he’ll never get out of here. I refuse to believe that the criminal justice system that failed him won’t ever redeem itself by righting its wrong and setting him free.
“Your life isn’t,” he continues. “I don’t want any more of this to touch you. For fuck’s sake, let it go.” He leans across the table at me. His look and tone turn threatening. “Let it go.” Then he gets up from the table and heads for the door that will take him back to his cell, ending our visit.
“Happy birthday!” I call after him. “I love you!”
He doesn’t respond or acknowledge me in any way. His mind is already back on the cell block. I’ve screwed up this visit and his birthday. I have to find a way to make it up to him, but I know nothing short of getting him out of this hellhole will make it right.
As I stand to leave, I wonder why I bother with these visits. He never seems to enjoy them, is never glad to see me. If anything, he appears to be annoyed and inconvenienced by my visits. He’s given up on himself just as our mother, then our father, gave up on him. Maybe, I think, as I burst out of the prison and into the blazing mid-afternoon sun, I keep up the visits to give us both something we haven’t had in a long, long time—hope.
But hope is a dangerous thing to court when there’s nothing to support it. Sometimes it almost feels as if I’m tipping headfirst into a kind of vicious insanity where I keep doing the same things over and over, expecting different results. It’s no way to live, but it’s my life. And it’s Beau’s until I can figure out a way to get him out of here.
I climb into my car and curse its lack of air-conditioning. I have the money to fix it, but it’s not my money—it’s Beau’s. So I roll down the windows and crank up the radio over the sound of the wind and head for home.
Some NPR talking head begins the hour with one of those feel-good stories that people like to repost over and over on social media. About how there really is good in the world and good in people. But with the prison behind me, and a long, hot drive ahead of me, I’m finding it hard to believe there’s anything good or just here or anywhere else in the world.
Something the host says has me cranking up the sound on my crappy radio as high as it will go.
“—your work with The Freedom Project led to the release of Maurice Battle after he spent nearly forty years in prison for a crime he didn’t commit.”
I jerk the wheel and skid to a stop on the shoulder. A cloud of dust comes up around the car and into my rolled-down windows. I cough, scrambling for the notebook I always keep in my bag, as the man being interviewed answers.
“Our agency takes on one pro bono case per year. We devoted as much time, energy, and effort toward this case as we do all of our cases. We’re thrilled that our work led to the exoneration of Mr. Battle.”
“What agency?” I scream at the radio, my pen poised to write it down.
They talk a little bit more about the case and the evidence the agency found that made all the difference, and I feel like I was meant to hear this story. That my fight with my brother was part of a grander scheme that put me in my car at the exact moment when the information I needed to help Beau would be handed to me.
The story is winding down and I still don’t know who this magician is who freed a wrongfully convicted man. A truck honks at me just as the host is thanking his guest and I catch only the last part of his sentence before they cut to the next segment.
“—Nash Security and Investigation.”
“What city? Where?” I yell at the radio. Something about getting lower insurance rates that I couldn’t give two shits about.
Nash Security and Investigation. I’m thankful to have that much, at least, as I grab my cellphone to test my Google-fu and see if I can figure out where in the U.S. this Nash agency is. But I’m in the middle of the godforsaken California desert and there’s no service.
I stuff my phone into my bag and pull back out onto the freeway, thinking about what I just learned. I never look for signs or believe in fate or angels or anything I can’t touch, taste, see, smell, or hear, but I can’t ignore the feeling deep in the pit of my stomach that I’m onto something big here. That finally there might be someone who can help me help Beau.
Chapter 2
Leo
The phone hasn’t stopped ringing since my dad was interviewed on NPR. Mostly it’s a lot of people wanting to get out of traffic tickets, child support, and probation. An occasional sob story gets thrown in the mix now and then, and I can see dad wanting to help, but the fact is he can’t pay Savannah, Al, Jerry, himself, and me if every case he takes on we do for free.
Not that I get paid much. I’m supposed to be learning the business from the ground up so I can take over when Dad retires. This means coffee runs, filing, trash duty, and the occasional fast-food pickup. Only Dad hasn’t taken the hint that I’m not going to law school just so I can stake out cheating spouses and fraudulent disability claims.
When my dad started doing Freedom Project cases four years ago I didn’t think about how or why people got convicted. And then I noticed that the bulk of wrongful convictions were because of official misconduct—police, prosecutors, and other officials abusing their authority just to clear a case. I know I could do more working for the district attorney’s office than I could ever do working on only one case a year here at Nash Security and Investigation. Unfortunately, this means that Dad’s dream of his son taking over the business like he did from his father just isn’t going to happen.
But right now it’s the start of the summer and I don’t have fuck all to do for the next couple months except be the office gofer and save my measly paychecks for the coming school year. Only one more year of school and then I’ll be applying for jobs that will take me out of San Diego and out of the running for the new head of Nash Security and Investigation.
Savannah has the radio on because she’s hoping to catch a rerun of Dad’s interview. I’ve already heard it and the recording of it that Dad played for Mom, so I’ve got my earbuds in, listening to Jay-Z uh, uh, uh his way through a song while trying to figure out if I should file The Viking Group’s file under T for The or V for Viking. The door opens. I know this because of the draft that comes in and the sunlight beam that runs along the carpet next to where I’m standing.
The door is open longer than necessary for just one person to walk in, and that’s what makes me turn around. My first thought about the chick coming through the door, hefting one of those tax boxes with the lids, is that she’s got to be in the wrong place. She doesn’t look like a delivery girl and she’s definitely not someone Dad would hire. But she is, without a doubt, absolutely, the most bangable girl I’ve seen in a long time. Too long.
I adjust my stance by the file cabinet for a better view without seeming obvious about it and jerk on the cords of my earbuds so they pop out of my ears. I want to hear what this girl has to say and what her explanation is about the box.
“Can I help you?” Savannah asks the girl.
Savannah’s a couple years older than me and I made the mistake last summer of sleeping with her a few times. She wants a repeat this summer, but I’ve kept my options open. And now, seeing the chick with the box, I’m glad I did.
“I’m here to see Ed Nash,” the girl says, as she flips her blue-and-black streaked hair out of her eyes.
It’s the same blue, I notice, as her eyes. Which is weird because the blue is not an ordinary blue and I don’t normally notice a girl’s eyes. Tits and ass, yes. Legs, maybe. Eyes, no. And now I’m letting my lecherous gaze wander
from those startling blue eyes to the rest of her, which is just as extraordinary.
“What’s your name?” Savannah asks.
“Cora Hollis.”
Cora catches me staring as Savannah lowers her head to look at Dad’s appointment book. Cora’s gaze takes the same slow route down, then up my body as mine had done hers. When she finishes I’m half hard and trying not to grin at her smirk. She liked what she saw every bit as much as I liked what I saw. I close the drawer of the file cabinet and lean against it.
“I don’t have you on the books,” Savannah says, her tone set to bitch.
“I don’t have an appointment,” Cora replies, her attention off me and on Savannah. “Do I need an appointment?”
“What’s this about?”
“I was hoping Mr. Nash would take a look at my brother’s case—”
Savannah puts up a hand, interrupting. “You need an appointment to see Mr. Nash to hire him for a case.” Savannah clicks around on her computer and I can see over her shoulder that she’s jumped ahead a few weeks on my dad’s appointment book, past lots of open spots. “His next available appointment is July twenty-third at two o’clock.”
Such bullshit. Savannah must have caught the once-over Cora gave me.
Cora drops the box on the edge of Savannah’s desk like it’s heavy. The way it thunks against the faux-wood laminate, it sounds heavy. “My brother can’t wait a month. I’m here now.” Cora smacks the flat of her hand on the top of the box. “And I’ve brought all of my files. Is Mr. Nash here or not?”
I can see this is going to get ugly, so I slip into Dad’s office. He’s scrolling through a report on his computer.